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Its our first every comp, and its a pic of Miss G at the park :)

Just entered my

first photo comp. Its ING Direct for a prize of $10000. Here's hoping! Will post the link when it is approved :)

Our trip to the park :)

We had a blast!

Parent Help today :)

What fun! ITs great to see the class in action, spend some time with Miss G, and see the interaction of her teacher with the class. I only wish I could have been like that!

I am applying to go back to school in 2010, studying to become a librarian technician. Books fascinate me! Next year is 'my year'. Walks (with the puppy :)) , Gym and weight loss .. real weight loss.

Me in a nutshell. Shall pop up some pics when I come back from parent help!

Have moved the weightloss stuff ...

into another blog :) This one will be my photos and scrapping. The other .. weightloss, food diary and exercise diary.

The address

http://thewaytoloseit.blogspot.com/

Hope this keeps the kickstart going :)

Well .. this is interesting

US election if the world could vote ...

http://www.iftheworldcouldvote.com

Wonder how it will go over there? This election has truly fascinated me!

Well no more excuses

If I plan to be skinnier for next hockey season, eating (and drinking :( ) is not helping me .. in fact without said exercise, I will end up as a fatter slob. So, I rejoined the gym .. start Friday 9.15am. I am not 100% happy with the gym, but it has great options for what I need, oh and child minding.

I can do this! I can be skinner and healthier. Plus, hopefully it will have a roll on effect as well.

Got my CM programs to work yesterday! Yay! Thats keeping me busy! Off to buy PSP as soon as I get a chance, and then the fun starts!

Parent help in a little while :) Love parent help, its good fun! With Miss G and M there, should be a blast!

The kids scrapping with me ..

Miss Gab's page above ...

Dec's page above, Caleb's Page Below ...

I love my parents!

That says it all .. they rock :)

Having one of those months ...

Where I work my butt off, and get nowhere!

Have heaps of things to say, but sadly need sleep! Shall add some photos tomorrow.

And before I forget to post, I am truly blessed. I have 3 gorgeous, adorable, polite children (well most of the time!) and a gorgeous husband who puts up with my sh*t! Its amazing what a bit of self reflection and a bit of a 'kick in the pants' does!

The weight loss journey that was on hold is slowly starting again. Hopefully will be hitting the ground running next week. The WW lessons I have learnt are being added to the family menu and habits all the time, so its getting there!

Must go sleep, its Miss G's athletics carnival tomorrow ... should be a fun day!

till next time .....

We did a great job!

We won the first game against Brooklyn 1- 1 (3 - 0 on strokes). It was a great game!

The second game was against OHA. We lost 2 - 0. But, I am so, so proud. The team played really, really well, and OHA really underestimated us! We gave them a damn good fight, and considering we were missing 4 players of our usual team, it was a simply fantastic job! It was good fun too!

It was wild, crazy weather. We at some stage during the two games had wind, rain, thunderstorms, burning hot sun, and hail (so bad, they had to take us off!)

That hail is just mind blowing for Tassie in spring! Crazy stuff. A great day though, hard *and I am paying for it today* but oh so worth it!

Its State Finals Day!

We play 9.30am, then 12.30pm :O I will be a tired little vegemite by the time I get home! We play Brooklyn (who it turns out my baby cousin Miranda plays for) and then OHA. Wish me luck!

A couple of scrapping things ..

Used with the program from http://www.scrapbookflair.com/index.aspx . A great program, ease of use is pretty good, and the projects look good (well I think!)

First one is a cheer up for my SIL (her husband has just started FIFO). The next two are practice ones ..

Hi ho, hi ho, its off to Burnie we go ...

and back. The day was better than I expected :P It was nice to see Nan and Auntie Sue again, and all in all the boys had perfect behaviour. It was lovely to see Nan being so proud of her great grandsons, seeing as she hasn't been that interested in them before.

Stopped at Bev's country crafts on the way home (http://www.realcommercial.com.au/business-sale/3068988) Didn't realise it was for sale :P Wish I could buy that, but mind you, that would make my profit be nothing! Just a fantastic shop, and got some great pages, embillishements and ideas :)

Must go do some cooking for tea, and psych up for states tomorrow!

Do't be afraid to say hi :)

Please :) Love to hear about the people who pop on here, and also to read your blogs! Would be great to get some comments ;)

Tasmazia ..

What fun :)







Just a few different pics of the day :)











Not sure why the pics are a bit screwy, but yes, an idea of the day.

Check out the first two pics .. me and one of each of the twins. Near damn impossible to tell them apart!!

Off to do the inlaws and the parents surprise for Christmas. That is if I get stuff from my sis and SIL's... Hmmm... wonder what that outcome will be :P

Oh my .. I hope the hail disappears by Friday night ..

As we are playing states :) We have a team, what great news. Must now go find a babysitter I guess!

Check out this...

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic

Ok, besides my voice sounding really weird (it doesn't on my computer .. odd!) this is where we went on Saturday. Tasmazia. It was fantastic. Some more pics to come :)

What a difference a few days make :)

Don't get me wrong, I am still hurt by the stuff that went down, but after a fantastic family day yesterday, it puts it ALL in perspective. Life is full of bumps and lumps, and going through what feels like a never ending maze. Its how you get over it, and the paths you take.

So I'm back to my normal happy self. We are adding exercise into EVERY day now, and the kids , heck all of us are feeling much, much better. We have also made the decision for the whole family to be on my WW diet. After all the chocolate is gone, no more in the house (yes, we could be strong and chuck it, but I am better with the gradual wean down) Chips have gone before, so at least this time, no bad :P

I am also making the tough decision to go back to study next year. I am just waiting for all the little things to fall into place, but its looking like a goer. As a few of you who read this know, it was something that I just didn't pay enough attention to back in my 'youth' days, and I am hoping to fix that :)

Must go finishing editing pictures, and that will explain my epiphany :)

Just read back on the blog

I am blaming fat for everything. That is just slack! I am not trying to do that at all.

I accept that I am obese, and I need to fix that. What I don't think is fair is when the family (both mine and DH's) see me as fat first, and Fiona as a distant second.

I mean, my cousin thinks I can't play hockey because I am fat. Its on the video dear cuz if you ever read this! My inlaws think i'm fat, as they are all size 6 - 10 and size 12 is fat to them. I clearly have no hope! My husband obviously does too, as the coompliments about how I look etc have gone to pot since I put this weight on.

No point in denying it was my fault I got fat. I self medicated with food and alcohol. Don't recommend it for anyone reading this!

All I want is for people to see me as me. Not as fat Fiona.

Yup, I know I said I would be the bigger person

but this needs to come out.

It hurts that no one gives a flying flip about how I feel in relation to things. It hurts that my inlaws can't even ask me how the game went, can't say thanks or can't even look at photos I send them, but get upset when I don't respond to theirs within 24 hours.

It hurts that my husband says that 'its just sport and it doesnt matter' or that 'thats just them'. I want him to understand that it hurts. That I am trying to reach out, and I just get things shot back in my face.

Guess thats it. Guess I want to be liked. Guess people can't see through the fat, and see the real me.

I thought I was doing the right thing, but I guess not.

Reading back, I sound depressed. Mmmm, Perhaps that is it.

Well, think that the best thing is to be

the bigger person :P

Nah, in all seriousness, its not worth the bother. Lets face it, its just my self esteem! Why bring down the team celebrations over that. I at least have raised the point (and they agreed) that if they were going to use this system of subs, that they needed to be transparent about it. Not the other way. So if nothing else, that makes me feel a little better!

Now, should I go back to Uni? Would it be common sense? What to do, what to do!

Miss G started 2 weeks of school holidays today. The three of them are snuggled up on the couch watching ABC kids (yup, relented first day of holidays! Thats bad!) It should warm up in the next hour or so, and by that stage I hope Mr D decides to put some trousers on!

Am aiming to get a running jump into packing up the rest of the kitchen. Have put it off for far too long! I also need to research a yummy idea for tea on Wednesday when Miss Jayne comes. Any Ideas????

Will add some new photos in a tick :)

Gotta love relatives ..

And yet again my weight is held against me :(

Even though I played all season, pretty much the same position, pretty much EVERY minute of every game, I was treated like shit yesterday. The manager (aka cousin) dragged me 7 times :( Why? Because apparently there is 2 tiers of players in our team, and the first 11 play till they are exhausted, and us 'subs' play just when they can in a position they haven't played all flipping season.

Now I get the having the best team on the field here. That is not the problem. But not being told what has happening then getting treated like a 2 year old. That shit isn't on. Playing the team ALL year and beating them, yet treating them like a team we can't beat. That isn't on.

Guess I need to shut up and ignore it, or deal. Still doesn't stop it from hurting.

Doesn't help when your SIL accuses you of stalking :O Apparently saying hi to her when I see her online is stalking.

From now on fitness and sitting in my shell seems fine.

The good news is, one of my team members is the coordinator at Uni, and she is going to help me finish my degree :) Now thats good news!

Must go, its cooking time. I hope the kids don't poison him :P Happy Fathers Day babe :)

Well off to the hockey grandfinal ...

Wish me luck! We are playing Tamar, and by rights we should win (being we beat them all the regular season, and in the semi's) but you know finals! Here's hoping by 2 oclock we have some premiership medals round our necks and we are sipping our first (of many) cold ones!

I have discovered PSP. What fun that is! Hence, no scrapping lately. Will have to redeem that soon.

Anyhow, until another day ..

Not much news ..

Not much to say, just wanted to keep the practice of blogging up :P This is a pic I took at Michaels (FIL) medal ceremony. Miss G loved her new dress!!

It had a gorgeous flower on her dress, and she showed it to everyone!






This is Tash, mum and dad's dog. I didn't take this photo, but I am learning PSP and touched it up.















This is my gorgeous 2 peas in a pod sons. They just keep getting more and more alike. This was mums first attempt of a pic with her new camera. Think she did a good job!

And of course, they are eating! They never stop I swear. Can't keep up with them some days!

Well a long time between posts ...

Thanks for the kick up the bum Sarah!

Well what has been happening? My weight loss has hit a plateau. I am a slacker. The food is going along pretty well, but the exercise and the commitment to WW has been really slack. I need to get my butt into gear and fix this! I have been doing some soul searching, and think I can see the reasons behind why I am holding back in losing it.

Being called fat in the supermarket didn't help the self esteem much either. Never mind, taking it all on board.

Have an appointment to re start at the gym on the 8th September. Too scared to start before that ...as we made the hockey grandfinal (and minor premiers :P) and I don't want to injure myself!

Must go plan tea!

Well, first go at prep parent help today!

What a funny day! Gab's class is just too cute! They were all pretty good, and were so happy to do what was asked. They are running assembly tomorrow which should be just gorgeous. I had to come late, so that tomorrow is a 'surprise' (mind you she has been singing the song all week :P)

The water part of the challenge so far is going really well. I have had a bit of coffee though .. might have to cut that back! I stayed the same this week, but ate (and drank) badly, so very grateful to stay the same!

Out to lunch also today with a 'computer' friend, who has turned into a RL one :) Thanks for lunch S, it was lovely today. We spent the whole time gossiping about the news on different websites, but it was lovely to do it without the helper 4 year olds! They spent some time with their grand mother.

On the hunt for some new bedding. Might head out to the Sheridan outlet.

Now what to do for tea ..........

Well .. as I commonly say ...

Sleep is over rated. Off this week to cry at the doctor I think and see if they have any solutions. This is just insane!

Anyhow .. we drew hockey 2 - 2. I am so pleased with that as we were a player down and they also had 4 subs. Did lots of running! Of course I came home and started comfort eating as the child is not sleeping. I know why I am doing it, I need to find a way to stop that!

I have joined a 12 week challenge called the star team. We start today! I am starting the first challenge this week, which is drinking 8+ glasses of fluid today, the majority being water. I am hoping to loose 10 kilos in this 12 week challenge.

Thats all for now, spring cleaning time! I got some lovely photos from the party we went to on Saturday, so break times will be sorting through those and sending/editing!

I truly detest ears, and have learnt that I am not...

as far into the weight loss journey as I thought. DS2 has yet another flipping ear infection. Not that that worries him, except of a night. He then can't sleep, and all he wants is to be cuddled, preferably in the upright position. Needless to say, only one of us gets sleep, and its normally him. I feel like a frieght train hit me!

The reason for not being as far as I thought I was is that I did what I used to do ... emotional eating and drinking :( I know I don't need it, but of course I have it. I have to get past this hump, I can't hide behind it anymore!

Off to hockey today, hopefully that will wake me up!

Yet

another post for today. I was knocked for six with news last night, and am still equally stunned today. A friend in a forum I am on has just be diagnosed with breast cancer. B, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am around when ever you need someone to help in anyway possible ok?

Exciting News that Deserves a post of its own :)

My first go and my new scrapping program, and what better way to test it than making 2 pregnancy announcements! Thats 2 nieces/nephews on the way in January .. how exciting!! Ignore the editing marks please, I cut and pasted wrong!

Wow ... I'm down 20 pounds now...

Well slightly more, but no complaints from me :) Thats 9.3 kilos :) I am stoked. I didn't have the best week, and was extremely premenstral, so any weight loss was a bonus (lost a kilo this week!)

Now, to lose the peanut butter addiction ...

The kids started swimming lessons yesterday. The boys started in the morning, and surprised me with their confidence. For 2 children who hate getting wet at the best of times, they were like little fish :P

Gab was in the afternoon, and didn't stop talking about going swimming between the 3pm pickup and the lesson.



Wannabee photographer here, and I forgot to take a camera. Thank goodness for camera phones eh?

It was a close game of hockey ...

It was a 9 - 0 win! Nice! I ran about 50% of the game, and stayed moving for the rest. I ran! I can't beleive how much I did run, and how good it felt!! Have made up those points for the beers on Friday. Yesterday I ate 5 under, and so far today I am 11 under. Struggling to keep up with the two bits of fruit, but loving the vegies and low fat dairy.

DH is away this week from tomorrow, so another test at getting my act into shape, and not falling back on easy teas. For those that don't know, DH works away a bit, he can go away for up to 8 weeks or so with anything up to an hours notice. He is off to Olympic Dam (SA) for 10 days.

Mum and Dad should be in London now. Bet they are excited. They are away for 7 1/2 weeks. Mum didn't kill Dad on the first night, and didn't trip over anything, so thats a good start to the trip :P

Must go finish cooking tea :)

Well, time for some accountability ..

I'm Fiona, mum to 3 gorgeous children, and the not so proud owner to a lot of extra fat. 6 weeks ago, I bit the bullet and joined weight watchers. So far the loss is at 8.3 kilos (18.3ish pounds) . I am pretty proud of my loss so far, but I have hit a wall food wise, and am hoping that writing here each day will help :)

I am also really, really interested in scrapbooking and photography. So, there will be samples of that too :)